ytd went out wiid wanzi and we went to see HAPPY FEET dartx show was so nice cann..ii love dartx show MAN!!! it is dde best show ii have ever seen..todae morning shimin msg me she ask me if ii want to go sing kKk but ii was still sleeping me lazy pig sia..den at 2++ she kall ma fone but ii don think anione wound kall me or msg me todae so ii did'nt check ma fone den went ii 3++ want to go charge ma fone den ii saw her kall and msg haiis but ii was sick aniway so ii oso cannot go was so suay cann dartx gurlx is so buzy everydae so hard to ask her out and went she is free ii am sick..argh!!!!!!!so sickening cann*..haiis nvrm maybe it's god will but after ii'm back from thailand ii will for sure try to ask her out dde hope she will be free..

oh and wanzi is so sweet cann she wanted to go to dde airport to send me off tmr..ii was so gandong cann she is so good to me ii for sure will missHER for dde whole week..ma two arm is so painful now..this few week ii oweas morning 5 plus den sleep now ma body cannot take it animore le 2nite ii better sleep early..got to stop here liaO ma two arms are killing me sia..

ii really wan to run away but ii'm not dartx brave..ii don noex wat ii wan animore..ii use to be so clear of ma own life but now everything is jus so blur and ii hate this..god pls make me blind ii don wan to go back and ii don wan to be lik this..ii do have dde will to carry on animore..ii don wan to be stuck down here ii don have anione everywhere ii turn..ii willing to be knock down so ii can lay on dde floor and neba get up animore..and when ii wake up ii don wanna be in singapore animore ii'm willing to start all over again in a new place,new skool and new faces which ii don even noex a single one..den ii can learn to noex ma-self again..ii'm willing to give up everyting..coz ii don seem to understand ma-self animore ii'm losing ma-self slowly..ii still rmb mr lawrence tell ma klass dartx got one gurlx our skool dde she jump down because she think she did not did well for her exam but she did beri well alr..she jus wanna relive her life again..ii don understand den but now ii totaly understand how she feel..if onli ii was as brave as her ii would take dde chance to relive again..so god pls end this for me coz ii jus could not do it ma-self..ii'm not depress or wat ii jus wan to be maself again..